Numb,
Wanting to be dead inside,
No longer able to feel and fall in love again,
A name forever engraved into my heart,
His face burned on the inside of my eyelids,
So everytime I close my eyes I see him,
I want to scream everytime I hear someone say,
"It's for the best",
"Your better off",
"Just give it time, you'll get over him",
I don't want to,
I love him,
But he's the one who broke it off,
The burn from hot tears starting to blur my vision,
Blink once,
Twice,
Three times,
My vision clears and no tear falls because I won't let them go,
I wont let my emotions get the best of me,
Numb,
Nothing,
I am nothing,
Hate for e
Current Residence: Longmont, Colorado Favourite genre of music: I listen to just about everything Favourite photographer: I have many and they are all extremely talented Favourite style of art: Macabre and Horror Wallpaper of choice: Anything I absolutely LOVE!!!!!!! Skin of choice: Others.......... Favourite cartoon character: Courage the Cowardly Dog Personal Quote: Never give up hope.
Favourite Visual Artist
Jeff Axer, Brian Froud, Ross Campbell
Favourite Movies
Labyrinth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Can't pick too many good ones
Favourite Games
Confrontation, the miniatures are AWESOME!!!!!, Munchkin and Munchkin Bites
Favourite Gaming Platform
Tabletop?
Other Interests
Music, drawing, art, painting miniatures, anything that may spark my interest..........
The end of the year is over and the beginning of the new one has started. Nothing great and wonderful has happened and I doubt anything really will.
I'm here,
Just here,
Just trying to get through the day,
Here,
Just here
Since I moved out. 11 days since we ended it. Having good and bad days. Today has turned into a bad day. Only after the plans for the evening changed.
Just irrational now. Not sure which emotion to let take over. I want to cry, laugh, or break things. Especially myself.
Feeling hopeless. Feeling like he ended it before Christmas so he didn't have to buy me presents, because he hadn't already bought me any. I had bought him some. I even bought him a comforter a week ago because I didn't want him to freeze. Feeling like he doesn't even care.
I really want to break a bone, that should be enough pain to last for a while.
What I really need is